Sleeper Awake

Yes, I am still alive.

I’ve gotten more than a few comments and emails about where I’ve been. Just fell off the horse for a couple weeks there. A combination of factors really; been really busy at work, my free time is suddenly very busy, I lacked the desire to post anything worthwhile, and I got involved in reading a couple books that left me rather depressed. Let’s tackle all these points and get everybody up to speed.

Work has been busy and it is burning me out. Since last summer I have been essentially alone in my analyst position at work. The other guy moved off island last August and my workload basically doubled at the worst possible time. We hired a replacement in late October, but it took him a couple months to get him up to speed. Right about the time he started getting useful he got offered a federal job and left. That was four months ago now, and it is starting to look like we just aren’t going to fill that position. I’m getting burnt out, deadlines are slipping yadda yadda yadda. Nobody wants to hear me bitch and whine so I’ll just shut up about that.

Let me point out I took today off, the first day off I’ve had since last August. The lure off a four day weekend was irresistible – and I still went into the office for three hours yesterday to run some jobs. Gaah!

Aotearoa PaddleAt least my second excuse is for a positive reason; I’ve been paddling canoes again. I might have mentioned it before, but yes I am paddling again and it is great to be back in the canoe. I love it, I love everything about it, the workout, the team spirit, the communion with the water, the swell of the waves, the whole canoe culture appeals to me. I wonder why I stopped paddling back in 2002? Oh yeah, now I remember. Those damn typhoons. Anyway, I’m paddling just about everyday now. Mornings, evenings, and weekends are spent out on the water and I am finding it a panacea for my work related stress.

As for blogging though, I am afraid I am suffering through a patch of ennui. I’ve been doing this for several years now and I sometimes feel like I’ve done all I can achieve with blogging. A short story here, some pictures there, a couple links to interesting or oddball stories. I mean, this starts to bore me sometimes. How many photos from Cassini taking pictures at Saturn can I post? Perhaps I need to rethink what I’m trying to do here, refocus my energies towards a different direction. I dunno, I need to think about it some more I guess.

Lastly, I fell into a bout of depression while reading through a couple books and watching some movies. Let me say, On the Beach by Nevil Shute is an astoundingly sad novel. And to follow it up with 1984 was probably not the best idea I’ve ever had. Don’t get me wrong, they are both very good, well written, and vitally important novels (especially 1984 – God it is a harrowing blueprint for our society) but they are both complete downers. And to follow up my reading with a couple movies like La Grande Illusion and Syriana… Let’s just say I watched Dave Chapelle’s Block Party last night and it was a breath of fresh air to watch something so infectiously joyful and full of life. I think I need to read some lighthearted summertime fair too, maybe Finnegan’s Wake?

Well at any rate, I am back to blogging and I will start posting up my usual links and photos shortly. Right now however, I am going for a hike on my day off.

1 thought on “Sleeper Awake

  1. Yuvonne

    During the absence of your words, I got ahold of the Firefly series and fully enjoyed it. I remembered you writing about it a few months ago. It’s almost better than Deadwood. If you’d like a laugh or two, check out Cars. I saw it last week and it was a delightful kiddy flick–flashing a taste of adult humor here/there. Just say “No” before you pick up the depressing books…

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